The last couple of weeks my mind is working better.  While numerical tasks are hard some are becoming easier.  I have to be very focused when dialing the phone but i can do it.  Praise God.  I am trying to be careful with spelling.  Things would be easier if i was not in so much blasted pain.  I have tried to stay away from taking too much pain meds as the dr. are so freecky a person will become addicted.  I have rasioned meds out to the point that i will be in at least low leveal pain... but today i am tired of the pain and it is bad... so i am medicating.   Ok ranted there now i will go on about something easle (smiles) 

I am painting which is so good for me.  I am pissed that i have to relearn and i am worse than before... but by the by i will just paint anyway.  I know i will relearn to paint.  Amanda Downs, an angle from God gave me the tools to be able to draw again.  She spent some time with me teaching me some techquniqes.  I am so thankful.  She gave me peace.  Of the many loses the lose of my little talent is devistating.

My eyesight is better.  several months ago when i tried to paint my eyes would not focus togher and i could not see where to put the pencil on the paper in relationship to with what i was looking at to draw.  kinda like seeing double; but my two eyes just did not match up together. I ccould close one eye and see and if i swiched to the other eye the imaage would shift just a little.  I have not found how to understand how to paint depth.  i can see i am not doing depth but i can not figure out how to make depth yet.  I am going to do some reading on the subject. 

Vovab and spelling are frustrating.  I hate looking illiterate.  I should try harder; but i tire of being bogged down with having to constantly look up words; i have started to use the spell ck.  For a while i did not for the purpose of letting the issue be seen.  I wanted to know if there  is a pattern.  Hard to say.    I am using the Smart Talk that was a gift.  It is really helping.  My brain feels the work out after i have listened to a pile of talking flashcards. 

In the creative living class there are assingments.  ONe is an artist date.  I decided that this weeks date would be to walk over to the florest without taking any money with me.  If i found something i wanted i would have to go back for it later.

I chatted with the store owner and shared about my embolization procedure.  I am trying to spread the word about empolization.  I did find something at the florest.  A garden flower bed stack with an carved pale yellow iris.  it cost 2$.  I am concedering buying it.  If i want it i'll come back tomorrow for it.  ...next day... i went and bought it and put it in my draw of gifts.   

Don over all is very good to me; he is very protective on me.  He also is suportive of my dreams; and if i say i wish i could do something he says go for it.  He is very kind and that was what i was looking for in a husband. 

In reflection; if i had it to do over i would have let people come in and see me after brain surgery.  I was so scared and i did not know how okay i was.  I had been told i had brain surgery and all i knew was that is bad.  I was scared i was really retarded and i did not know i still had my hair.  If i had it to do over i would let famil and frineds come to see me after surgery.  I am truly sorry for any hurt and dismay this caused.  I did not understand how imporatn this is to family esp. when so life threating.