the seeing brain (Friday, January 12, 2007 - 12:00:00 AM)[Post a Comment]
These past couple of weeks there has been noteable brain changes and i am feeling about a fourth of a cm better.
I have gained understand of the function i need to do a math problem but i can not do the even the simplist of math in my head. I struggle to use a calculater as i search for the number but i am able to accomplish the task with concederable determination. Dialing the phone is the same issue of finding the numbers on the key pad but it is becomeing easier. 6 months ago i could not even find a phone number in the phone book; i can now accomplish the task again with much determination. If i become fluster then all is lost and the brain can not see what is right in front of it. I am able to count to 30 easly. I can sometimes count crochet stiches while i am making the row but usually i have to just count the row afterwards to see if the row has the correct number of '30' stiches. There are still depth perseption issues. I have had a change in my depth perseption this past month and i am a bit out of sorts again when reaching for something on my right side. Objects seem further away; perhaps at a more normal distance, yet things still seem amiss. Most of the time i know where the dishes go in the cabnit. I have no trouble finding the chocolate stash! I am still not use to the perfiial blindness. My mind seems not to understand just becasue it is not within my sight does not mean that it is not there!!! Crash. I can not see fast movement. I need time to focus and conceder what i am looking at to be able to interpret what i see. I am able to read but only for about 15-20 minutes which makes for a very slow devoring of a book. I use to go the the libary and check out a stack of 10-20 books to read in a couple of weeks. This past week I have made progress and did finish a novel in a little over a week. I am trying to wade through another one. The novels hold my interest enough that i will read. I will read til the eye brain quits and i am required to put the book down and rest. I use a magnifer page often enough that i will be glad when i can finally aquire specticles.
The fiboids are shrinking but they are still there causing pain and havic to the hilt.
I am painting, folding origami, reading, and dreaming impossilbe dreams. What odds do i have in conquring my mt. Everest? I have every day ahead of me to find away and I will work everyday to that end. For in climping the impossilbe i will have something i long for: the rest of my soul. carolaina
I am reading two books a friend sent. The healing Touch, a biograph, poems, letter, and life stories of people touched by Helen Stiener Rice. The other book The Promise of Winter has thoughtful perspecitives and photographs of winter and such times in our lives.
When I was a teen I read Helen Rice's little books of prayerful poems. They were precious to my mind and heart. It has been interesting to read some of the bio.; she had such harsh tragidies. I had precieived her poems born of a well cared for life; I should have realized that behind such inspired beauty was pain. I am in awe what she created with hers. It teaches me to be more thoughtful of my own pain and find ways for it to be lovely. Much like my art; if you know what it cost me you see its deeper beauty. There is an understanding from soul to soul.
The other book Jo sent me is The Promises of Winter. Winter is such a difficult season for me. The book wraps around my thoughts and broadens my views. The grays are deeper the cold is crisper, my love warmer.
Based on your answers to the quiz, your character’s most likely alignment is Lawful Neutral.
Lawful Neutral
A lawful neutral character acts as law, tradition, or a personal code directs her. Order and organization are paramount to her. She may believe in personal order and live by a code or standard, or she may believe in order for all and favor a strong, organized government. The common phrase for lawful neutral is "true lawful." Lawful neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you are reliable and honorable without being a zealot.
Sumi-e drawing (Sunday, December 17, 2006 - 12:18:34 PM)[Post a Comment]
I have been trying to relearn to paint and draw. It is happiness and sadness but it is my truth that comes out in the paintings. I am enjoying the story that each painting tells. I received a wonderful gift of a Japanese Ink drawing set. I did not think I would be trying to paint in this style for some time but the kit motivated me to try. I am having happiness as I try to understand this wonderful medium and relearn eye and hand cordination. My fine motor skills are heavy from the accident. I wanted to learn more about the art of Sumi-e drawing and Don suggested going to YouTube. And there is a wonderful artist demostrating Sumi-e drawing. You can go to YouTube and watch Kazushimura paint.
His paintings inspired two poems:
Feel the breeze Smell the grapes Hear someone in the garden.
Smell the flower. Touch the soft petals. Its fragrance forever. Pressed the flower in words on this page. Its fragrance lingers for a life time. Today a flower made a memory that lingers. Its freshness fills the room. It's fragrance soft in the morning, powerful in the sunlight, and lulls to sleep peacefully. I awake to the smell of a flower.
sigh (Monday, December 4, 2006 - 9:11:16 AM)[Post a Comment]
Another rough couple of weeks. While the fibrods are shrinking they are also cause havic. So much pain that i am not up to much. I did not have tai chi class this morning. This not being able to do much in the throws of pain only adds to me being upset. I want to be well and move on with my life. I have things to do and places to go and a world of moving and shaking to do!!! I have a list of stuff that needs to be done and then i have a list of stuff i just want to do because it is fun.
I can paint even when i do not feel well but i can not paint with the pain screaming through my adominal area. I received a wonderful gift: a Japanese ink set; I have painted Chinese watercolors in the past and figured it would be some time before i was up to such a challage again. But the wonderful gift incouraged me to try. I used half a pad of paper just playing. I had so much fun. The art is now hanging down the hall in the frames i bought just for the purpose of displaying my current art work.
