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i lived for this? why? (Thursday, March 9, 2006 - 7:44:04 AM)
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There are a good number of people who say they are so glad i lived and what a miricle. Let me tell you the reality of living after brain surger is horrible. There is the physical healing, nerological healing, mental and spirtaial healing taking place and they all feel like being in hell. and on top of all that the cats want attention and hobs wants to play; i do not have the energy to play with hobs which makes him upset and he then has a whiny fit and then finds something to tear up... Precious who we have had to cage at night and most of the day because she refuses to use the litter box most of the time....and she has hair ball issues and throws up of course of the expensive beautiful bedspread, which i now how to keep a cover over ....the dust from the litter makes the house dustier and more work for me to have to clean, I do not want a dirty or cat smelly house. I have come to hate and resent the cats.
I have had trouble counting again which is upseting when i try to crochet; the only thing i have to do. I have started trying to RElearn to draw. I lost what little ability i had to draw and color theroy concepts. I am fighting to relearn to paint and drawl. I am having to fighit with making my eyes focus and stay focused....I sketched a small 2 inch area that took about an hour and was pphysically wiped oout for a couple of days...and my eyes refused to focus for reading.
Had to call the plummer again ; the tolet statted leaking again... these things just can not be ignored.
I would like to clean out the flower beds...
I just want to keep the house running effeicatly; i am so lossing ground in too many ways.
I hate defeat; i will not be a losser; I hate not being able to take care of myself; I hate depending on the half help ; I want to be able to take care of my life in the full way i am accustum. I want to be able to dial a phone number, drive, see, hear, read, work so i can pay bills and afford living ...etc.
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chocolate (Monday, February 20, 2006 - 3:23:19 PM)
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There are three kinds of chocolate beans: Criollo, Forastero and Trinitatio. Criollo is the original kind, the sort that the Spanish nicked off the Aztecs. This is the stuff that produces the all round best-flavoured chocolate. So, of course, most chocolate is made with the inferior Forastero, which is cheaper, and easier to grow in bulk. Trinitario has a variety of strengths, being a hybrid of the two. (Only 5-10% of the world's cacao is good quality Criollo, or higher grade Trinitario, mostly single estate specialists.)
I wonder if I have ever had Criollo chocolate?
Source: http://alasdair.livejournal.com/189736.html
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too long shoe laces (Tuesday, February 14, 2006 - 12:57:58 PM)
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I cut about two inches off each side of my shoe laces. They were way too long and i was tired of tieing up the extra inches so i would not trip on the long laces. Not a problam any more as i walk by the trash can and drop the cut ends. tied notts at the ends of the cut laces .
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withdrawls (Monday, February 13, 2006 - 8:12:41 AM)
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I am being taken off the seisure meds. The withdrawls are painful; my joints ack, fatigued, sleepy and restless.
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Trying my way in the kichen (Thursday, February 2, 2006 - 12:59:53 PM)
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I am doing a little none cooking preperation in the kithcen. Monday i cut up some strawberries and Wednessday i made some soy pamento cheese.
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